It's the time...

Things have never been smooth for me in this year. I had some conflicts that kept bothering in my mind, my heart. I met friends that told me to cool down and looked things the other way round. Whenever I am down, I can't stop myself to find him to talk about the stuff and cried it out loud. Yes, I am emotional when I faced the things that I care all the way I grow up -- friendship. I am really sick of myself that why I've been bothering it so much? People are not as care as me OKAY? Friendship is just some passengers walk through my life, I know that well. I just can't easily let go them,those that are important for me although we are apart away from each other. Well, I've overcome it now, mostly. I just angry for myself why everytime I can't handle the emotional things myself without go and tell to the others? If possible, I really don't want to disturb them, some listener might be helpful, some might just helpless. I want to learn to face it by MYSELF-- all alone and swallow all the things. Siew Yann has been telling me that I am still naive and pure and there's a lot of things for me to learn yet. BUT, I did grow! I DID! Maybe I still not that master in judging people escpecially those hyprocrites. Maybe I look things too seriously than the others. It's ironic when I put more efforts and my feelings to frienship, instead of my own career, future. It's the time now... to act for myself, my life. Too much things are waiting for me to do! I always tell this to myself, but seem like again my nature to put frienship as vital place. Human being always know their mistake without repent on it, and they make the same mistake again and again. INFINITY. Hope things can come to an end, and I want to get things done. Not much time left for me though... ...It's the time to ACT! No more talk, but ACTION !