I am regret for being so drunk yesterday. I have never been like this before, silly me, being so foolish to drink so much yesterday. And bring troublesome to friends as they need to take care of me. I puke, puke and puke. The feeling is not good. I promised myself I don't want this to happen on myself again. I will love myself more. I dont want to be headstrong anymore.

Good experience, great people

I'm back to Cyberjaya life again! Previously, I had worked 4 days continuously from Monday till Thursday in Mandarin Oriental for a singapore company as a delegates liason officer. At first, I has been told by my agent that I just need to work for two days only which were Monday and Tuesday but later the employer had made up the decision to extend my duty to two more days. When I first time met Mr. Kenny (he preferred I called him Kenny) and Jessica (which I know later they are husband and wife), they were just nice and friendly. I thought they were my boss, so everything just need to go through them and I felt that I can handle the job on Monday, it won't be a difficulty for me :)

Unfortunately, I was late during the first day of my work! Gosh, God knows why I'm late for that! Frankly, it was actually the fault of KTM, which delayed up to 20 minutes! Damn! This is my first day of working! From 6.50am, I waited until 7.15am and the journey took about 40 minutes to reach KLCC! Damm it! I thought I can manage to reach on time, which was 7.45am as Kenny had told me. AAA!~ I will be not surprise if they might have a negative impression for me since I'm late for the very first day! Sigh...it's really the KTM, stupid lousy train fault, or else I'm sure I can make it punctually.

Phew! Luckily, they didn't scold me, but I still felt angry for myself and blamed the KTM! I started to help around in the conference but eventually there's nothing much to do since the booklets, brochures, name tags have been arranged by the don't-know-who-is-that, maybe the hotel's officer... was quite embarssed about that since it's under my job scoope also. There's a lady who at her mid 50-ages I think, came and greet me and she is called Caroline. Caroline had a pleasant personality, always with her sweet smile and kind enough to give me some advises. I thought she was the PR for the company. An excellent PR in fact! I like her! Then I saw this guy, quite young and fair with his baby face, thought that he was also an employee in the company, was wearing a smart-looking formal wear. He came to me and said 'Hi, I am Han'. Okay, I thought this guy must be also like the other singaporeans who also has high self-confidence and spoke well fluent english. And then, there's another man, who was wearing spectacles who looked quite steady and calm, and introduced himself as 'Sunny', who was a conference producer in this company. SO, basically every singaporean speaks excellent and fluent english, it made me felt bad since I...I speak MANGLISH! Maybe my friends thought that my english is not bad but I felt damm low self-confidence when talk to them. Not only that, there's another young employee who is called Shierly, a singaporean who can speaks China accent of Mandarin! Gosh! Everyone at here is good in languages! BUT NOT ME :x sadly!

Nevermind, I just do my job well and hope everything will be fine soon. However, I found out that Jessica was not a singaporean, she's from GuangZhou in China and migrated to Singapore when she married to Kenny. AHA!~at last, there's at least someone I will feel comfortable with, due to I can speak cantonese or mandarin with her! No worries with scractching my head to recall back those english vocabulary... (sound like avoiding, just that I'm really feel that my english sucks!) I hate myself for that! arghh!

The company I was working with, was actually a conference organiser company, if you interested, just check out http://www.k2binternational.com . Six Sigma for Asian Oil and Gas was teh title and there were delegates from different country like Malaysia, Indonesia, India and Kuwait. The speakers were from Singapore, Netherlands, US and Pakistan. I was responsible in the registration job and something like usherer to stand by whenever they need anythings. The first day was still okay actually. Everyone from k2b kept asking me is there any issues?is everything alright? And yeah, everything was just fine. While at the same time, I kept asking myself, erm...did I make any mistake? Can anyone tell me? Well, I have to figure out myself anyway.

There's not much for me to do when the conference has started. Jessica and I were having good conversation and I asked her a lot questions and we exchanged our point of views, shared our stories, cultures and so forth. She was cheerful all time and I felt that I seem like 'older' than her in the sense that I am not as active as her...haha!~ Well, she did ask me to come earlier for the next day, hmm... I doubt that if she believed that I don't mean to be late...

Alright! Second day of work, I finally managed to arrive on time. I ran towards Madanrin Oriental when I arrived in KLCC. How clumsy I was! ;p But sadly, Jessica and Kenny and also the rest were going back to Singapore. Sigh...nobody to talk to since I am not that close with Sunny and Han. However, maybe I think too much, they were really nice and outgoing friends to talk to. And what surprised me was that-- The boss of this company was HAN!~my goodness! I felt surprised that he was actually the Managing Director...24-years-old! IMPOSSIPLE??!! No wonder during the first day, every employee asked opinions from him! And no wonder he sounded so confidence indeed and good in socializing around with the delegates! Luckiliy, I didnt say something back about him>?or else he fired me, lol. Through these three days, I learnt a lot from k2b staffs and also Mr.Managing Director. And I was so surprised on the third day that he had offered me a job in Singapore!!!~~~ Gosh!!! I was flattering! He can wait me after I graduate? Wow, awesome! But argh...I need to consider this well also, because I got loads of things in my mind that I want to do...every decision is a stake...right? No doubt, there's a lot questions in my mind, saying...but why me? Singaporeans speak good english than I do! Well, I think I had asked him the question, maybe...while he answered, I might not aware that, maybe... haha!~ I remebered that he said I am potential, talent, determination and beautiful. But still, why me? perhaps, I will ask him again. This is because I felt that I am not good enough. sigh.

Besides that, through this conference, I had known plenty of nice delegates and even speaker! One of them was SK, which has high post in Titan Chemicals, if I'm not mistaken. He did share alot of working experiences, how we choose the company, by going into the right path. Well, he was kind enough to spend his time to talk all those career stuff to me, and I felt thankful indeed. What I like about was, he told me 'don't use 20 years to achieve things like what I did, you should fully utilize the technology now and get your achievement in 3 to 5 years time' Wow...!~

On the other hand, a speaker called Mr.Syed Nadeem was a Black Belt for Six Sigma from Pakistan brought along with his wife and daughter to the conference too. They were also very friendly person that I've met. At the end of teh conference, Mr. Nadeem even gave me his name card to keep in touch. So, this is how we began our network, is it?

This has been another great experience for me by working with this conference organiser. Friends told me that I should not so easily to trust my colleagues, but umm... I am not sure they are real to me or not, but undeniably, I learnt alot from them. By the way, I felt that I gained respect by working in this job, everybody seems to be treating each other equally.

After all this, I kept feeling it's time to have more and more self-improvement as I will going to start my career soon.

I wish I can say sorry to Jian Yi...everything I said that night it's for your own good but I did it in a wrong way...I'm sorry...I hope you will be a better person, really... ...